THE MOMENT OF TRUTH FOR A DISCONSOLATE MOTHER AND HER NEWBORN CHILD
This article is about a tale that should have been written years ago, but because of the callous nature of one detached husband, it wasn’t penned. It’s about a wife who felt that she couldn’t share her deepest feelings with me at a time when she needed it most. Now, some 40 plus years later, the time has come.
This story goes hand in hand with two other articles I wrote over 2 years ago. They describe the ordeal of dealing with a newborn child who couldn’t breathe properly when she was born and the life threatening consequences of facing the surgeon’s knife to hopefully correct the defective situation.
In NEONATAL INFANT: PART I, and later in NEONATAL INFANT: PART II, a lot was said about what they did to handle the situation, but not enough about Divine Intervention that took place at that time. This article will rectify that omission.
The Milquetoast Believer
At the time of the birth, I was on the fence as the reluctant bystander who had no particular affinity for prayer or a relationship with the Creator of the universe. As time passed, I had every reason to think otherwise after surviving 3 near fatal accidents that should have grabbed my spiritually deficient attention.
My wife, on the other hand, was a born again Christian who was afraid to share her faith with me because of my unyielding stalwart nature back then. My hard headed and strong willed personality was a deterrent to accepting any type of spiritual input from her. As it stood at the time, she kept a number of deep seated feelings to herself during that period of pending tribulation.
So, while writing an article about another member of the extended family unit who was willing to share his spiritual thoughts about the horrific ordeal he went through in “A BEATING HEART THAT WOULDN’T DIE“, I approached my wife with the idea of having her share her long suppressed deep feelings about that particular moment in time.
Women Are Mysterious Indeed
As a side note, for some inexplicable reason, I had recently taken a keen interest in reading about notable women in the Bible. The ones that come to mind are the Moabite Princess named Ruth who faithfully stayed with her mother in law, Queen Ester who saved her people from the annihilation, and Sarah, the wife of Moses. They all had endearing characteristics that were admiral, but the main one I focused on was that they rose to the occasion when needed most.
My wife proved capable of meeting similar challenges, including all those that could have sent her packing when I often gave her good reasons to do so. Instead, she remained a faithful spouse after she risked everything to become my marriage partner for life and vaunted companion who has supported all of my spontaneous ventures in the process.
Through it all, however, I have failed to recognize the need to uncover her deepest secrets. Until now, I never knew that she had personal contact with the Lord who, she says, spoke to her after our young daughter’s birth and helped her survive the torment coursing through her mind and spirit.
The Trial That Tore At Her Soul
At this point in the article, I felt it best to let her tell her side of the story about what happened to her during that mind numbing period of her life. I can only say that I am sorry I did not ask her long ago, but I was not a writer back then and so much of it would have remained buried in my mind without any inspirational impetus to reveal those cherished memories to others..
So, to wit, here is what she wrote:
“In the summer of 1976, I thought I was in a pretty good place as far as my overall life was concerned. I had a comfortable home, two awesome kids, a husband that I adored, and I was pregnant with our youngest child. I felt I had reached this pinnacle in my my life by my own efforts without any type of spiritual intervention. Even though I had achieved an overpowering knowledge of God since I was a young girl, I didn’t particularly feel that He was a contributing factor to bringing me to where I had arrived at that time.”
“As a result of this mindset, I felt I would let God know if I ever really needed Him. In September of that year, everything changed when my world began to collapse after the birth of our daughter. Up to that point, all had gone well, with no indication of what was to come. When it did, I was totally unprepared.”
“When my daughter was born, she was beset with a problem that the doctors had never dealt with before. The fact that she came into the world discolored and labored to take simple breaths was very disconcerting. They originally thought she was just a preemie with issues until a few weeks went by whereby they noticed the initial stages of a tumor growing deep down in her throat. This meant she would have to stay in the hospital while they ascertained her condition and then face the type of surgery that could possibly end her life.”
The Divine Revelation
“I went through agony realizing I might never be able to bring my baby home. I also felt isolated from the one person that I really needed who himself was suffering with this fear of losing his only biological daughter. So, I finally realized I had no place else to go but to God.”
“At one particular moment, I was alone at home sobbing into my pillow crying out to my Creator. I kept shouting the words ‘why, why, why this, Lord’? How long do I have to suffer? While going through this insufferable ordeal, I knew full well then that this was the one time I couldn’t get myself out of this seemingly hopeless situation through my own merits. I was totally dependent on His Mercy.”
Suddenly, without warning, inside my aching body, I heard a profound and quite audible Voice saying very clearly to me: “The time is not right….”.
When I harkened to that Voice (of God) speaking inside my head, I immediately had a feeling wash over me that I can only describe as a peace that was beyond my understanding. I had heard that term in the past, but up to that point in my life, I never knew what it felt like or what it was all about.”
“From that moment on, I began to face the fact that I would have to accept his will, whether it be good or bad. I even told the doctor, before he performed my baby’s surgery, that if she didn’t make it, I was still glad that I was able to have what little time that I had already spent with her.”
“Notwithstanding, as fate would have it, and by the absolute grace of God, she not only survived the surgery with flying colors, but has transformed into a beautiful young woman who has given birth to two young healthy boys and is married to a wonderful husband. I feel it is my reward for listening to my Savior’s voice at a dire point in time and accepting what he not only had to tell me, but I then forever dwelt in the glory of the end result according to His will.”
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